I have to warn my readers that this blog is a little soppy, I want to write everything down while it is all fresh in my mind – How I am feeling, my emotions, its a personal blog entry today but I don’t mind sharing it with my readers as someone may be able to relate to how I am feeling, and my words could possibly provide some comfort and thought.
6:45am Thomas woke with his usual babble I could hear over the monitor, I waited a few moments trying to wake myself up hoping he would settle back down, but he didn’t so I got out of bed and went to his room to see him, via the bathroom to splash my eyes with some cold water 
He gave me a huge beaming smile between the bars of his cot, a smile big enough to put any mum in a good mood. We went downstairs where I proceeded to do the usual morning routing – Changed nappy, baby TV to keep him amused on his mat while I prepared his bottle and Ready Brek. After his morning feed I turn the TV off and sit Thomas on his play mat with cushions behind him in case he wobbles. I sit with him and play with him for a while, I then make myself a drink and leave him to play by himself with me sat on the couch watching.
This morning I decided to go a little crazy like you do to get a smile from your baby! Thomas has started to bob his head to music, he is so funny! I put some music on my laptop and had a boogie with him, he loved it. By this time it was getting near 9am he usually goes down for a morning nap at 9am, so to calm the mood I played our favourite sleepy song – Somewhere Over The Rainbow. I sang and cuddled him on my knee, before I knew it I found myself crying! Not with sadness but with love. I was overwhelmed with emotion as I looked down on him, the amount of love I have for him, How I would do anything for him! How Nathan and I have created such a beautiful baby I was full of emotion. Trying not to let him see me cry I wiped my eyes when the song had finished and carried him back to bed for his nap. He was tired out after a morning of fun and song, it wasn’t long before he fell asleep.
I keep thinking about why my emotions were so high this morning, we have listened to that song numerous times before without provoking such feelings. I am due to go back to work part time next month, Thomas is spending a couple of days a week with his Grandma which I know he will love. But I’m not sure if I am ready, its a huge step which has been playing on my mind now for some time now I love him so much. I am sure I will have many more moments of emotion over the coming months.
It is a hard thing to do, go back to work after having a baby – What are your thoughts on this topic? I would love to hear your thoughts, are you going through the same thing?
Hi,
I am sure it is partially down to the stresses of knowing you have to do the thing you least want to do! With your Nathan by your side holdng your hand all the way I am sure you will be fine.
It is very clear Thomas Loves you very much as he is always smiling and making you smile, and knows you are always there for him.
It is really the saddest part of being a mother, especially if you are a working mother. After having a baby you have to go back to work. It also depends on you, what to choose being with your baby all the time or leave him to the care of a Grandma. Rearing your own child is the greatest feeling a mother can ever feel than leaving him to others. We know that at this times we should really work for our family but according to the study it is very important that the mother is taking care of the baby within six months after birth so that the feeling between them would develop.
I live far from my daughter. The first time I saw her was through a video cam. I still remember that tenderest feeling of gazing at your own baby. Maybe poets would be at a loss of words to describe the emotion. Truly a wonderful feeling that cannot be contained by our finite minds.
Even though most mothers want to spend all their time taking care of their kids, they should also consider their child’s future and needs. If mothers won’t work then probably she can’t give all her child’s needs. Go to work and just make sure to spend quality time with your baby after work.
A mother is willing to do anything for the sake of her child. Sometimes she has to choose between things. I think you are the only one who can decide on this matter. Choose the one that is more important to you.
I think you should also realise that in this modern age a mum has to put food on the table at the moment where caring for my son is ultimately the most important thing to me in the world, I would never compromise his standard of living and care.
I am not a mother but I really and clearly understand what you feel. All I can say is that as his mom, your child should feel very lucky to have you. reading your post. I can feel your great emotion. Your deep love for your child. Your feelings are normal for a mother. There is really that moment in our life that we realize something, that we appreciate things and suddenly feel emotional.
I am so sorry for you! It doesn’t seem right that you should have to find someone else to care for your baby so that you can provide for him, but unfortunately, that is the way it is. You will do it because you love him. Try to view it like that. At least he gets to stay with family while you are gone, that is good.
A mother’s love is unconditional. She is willing to give up anything for the sake of her children but she is also willing to do everything for them. I know that it is hard for you to choose between your career and taking care of your child. Whatever decision you may make, whether you choose to get back to work just keep in mind that you are doing it for him and make him your inspiration.
Although most mothers want to spend all their time caring for their children must also consider the future of your child and their needs. If mothers do not work, then she probably can not give all your child’s needs. Go to work and just make sure you spend quality time with your baby after work.
Well deserved. Great guy!It is a hard thing to do, go back to work after having a baby It is very clear Thomas Loves you very much as he is always smiling and making you smile, and knows you are always there for him.
I believe a woman should be home with the kids personally. I hate it how everyone puts money ahead of the care of their children, a well raised family is worth more than any job can pay you. And harder work too.
I want to become a mother soon, but I’m really worried about balancing my career with parenting. Work is very important to me, but I have a feeling that once I have a child, I’ll want to spend all of my time with him or her. It’s good that you’re only going back to work part-time for now, so hopefully you’ll still have plenty of time to play with Thomas everyday.
Going back to work after having a baby is no fun at all. It’s a shame that you have to be away from your little one, but it’s an unfortunate reality for most mothers these days.
Life will hand you a lot of twists and turns as a parent (I know this all to well), most of the time these twists aren’t very enjoyable, but you have to soak up the moments like you had with him. Taking time to realize the love we have for those around us can be overwhelming, but it helps you appreciate just how much you really have.
You never know what the future holds, there may be opportunities for you to spend more time with him, or you may end up working more than you would like to – whatever happens keep soaking in that love and keep covering your family with your affections and love as well. Don’t let mundane, every day life rob you of how much joy you get from your family.
They are only little once, so savor every second.
It is tough. I was all lined up to go back to work, and ended up quitting after 2 days. I regret it now because after a few years of staying at home, your skills just aren’t relevant any more. Neither situation is perfect.
As a mother of two, I have experienced what you have undergoing now. It is always our prerogative to work or not after having a baby. Actually this kind of matter or issue must be well talked about by ourselves and our husband. This is a crucial thing. I think it would be better to be with your son first while your husband works. In my case, I let my first son reach age of 1 before going back to work. We get housemaid then to set him when I and his father works. I guess this is the best I could advice you to do, because the attachment between a mother and a child is important especially during those time when the child was still couple of moths old. They still need our warmth, caress and love.
Caring and loving is the best job for mothers. I felt the same way as you did when your emotions for your baby went out. It is always the love of a mother which could never be taken away from her baby. Working and at the same time looking after your little one could be hard but we should keep in mind that we do this for them. The important thing is that we do these things for love.
I had a nephew living together in my house. He’s so cute and very intelligent at the age of 2. He is very jolly and can answer you back in a polite manner and in an intelligent way showing that he really understand what you mean. I always enjoyed and being entertained taking care of him when I’m home. No matter how tired am I, he can really relieve all the stress that I feel. I can really feel that you are a good and responsible mother to your baby. Mother really knows what’s best so keep it up. Your son will grow up with full of love and respect. He is very lucky to have you as his mother!
Being away from your baby is very hard. But there are some things that we have to sacrifice. By working away, you will be preparing for the future of your son. It is for his own good so I guess even though its hard, you have to survive that.
I can really feel the emotion you have while reading your post. It’s really sad to think that your going back to your work already. Just be thankful that God has given you such a beautiful baby. I can feel what you feel because I’m also a mother of two and I’m a working mom also. I also experienced being apart with my loved ones. This made me also experience what you’re experiencing right now.
Hi Jen! I’m a single woman but I could very much relate to your feelings. A mother’s love for her child is perhaps the best love in the world. A mother always knows what’s best for her child. In order to do that, a sacrifice is worthwhile for your child to have a bright future. So, you shouldn’t worry that much because everything that you do is actually for your child, the important thing is that your love and care for Nathan is always there and that’s the thing that no one can take away from you. You’ll do great Jen!
Very true, A mother heart is always drawn emotionally, but remember that You can’t provide things he need if you will not keep working..well anyways that a cycle of life..thanks for sharing your thoughts..
Parenting is one of the sensitive task to perform. In the sense that if you don’t know to deal with it you can even destroy the life of your own sibling. In one book that I’ve read, it is quoted there that to be a perfect parent you should be always in the side of your child. But, in the case of Jen how could she do it since she’s working? In the fact that we cannot serve two masters in the same time. But for me, this is only depends on the parents on how to handle this situation. On how to balance their time between their child and their work. Two things are important so need to give equal attention on it.
First of all, I’d like to commend you for doing such a great job with your parenting skills. Looks like your son’s very happy with what you’re doing. And, good thing for you because you’re not afraid to try some stuffs that may please your toddler. As for your question, I think first time parents are stuck with the same dilemma as yours (especially the mothers). After you gave birth and until the span you will go back to work you already have established some bond and rapport with your child. And, I think it’s wise for you to go back to your work. Just make sure that you will balance both your time with work and parenting.
It is very clear Thomas Loves you very much as he is always smiling and making you smile, and knows you are always there for him. good